Sunday, November 22, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
A: No, 'no order of difficulty' definitely does not mean you can ask for what you want and then you get it. This is not a shopping spree. It means we receive exactly what we require for our personal growth and development. Do you really believe you know what this is? How do you know having a child is even required for you? Or is this just what you want?
Inner Presence knows no order of difficulty in setting us up to perceive outwardly what is inwardly unintegrated, so that these inner blockages may be consciously cleared. This work is definitely not about making a shopping list and expecting all the items to be delivered, pronto. This is not The Secret or any Law of Attraction technology.
I suggest you contemplate what the difference is between the word 'want', and the word 'required'.
This work is about what is required, not what we think we want. Integration of any condition takes as long as is required. Do you tell your body exactly how long it has to digest a meal and exactly when to have the consequent bowl movement? You have just as much say over how your heart approaches and accomplishes integration. Doing The Presence Process is like the eating of the meal - which is our part in the process. The digestion and elimination - if we keep our heads out of the way - happen organically, according to the required pace.
Congratulations on having completed the journey twice. May your third time through open you to what is required for you. May you gain deeper insight into what it means to "get out of the way".
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
A: Yes, but we can also do a little exploring right now. The first step is to consider that chronic procrastination addiction and self-sabotage - as you call it - is also called "ambition". When a cell in the human body becomes ambitious - and tries to do exactly what it wants - we call it cancer - or variety of Latin names.
For a moment I suggest you drop your goals, dreams, and thoughts about what you perceive as your potential. When they drive us into the future, most of these are driven by unintegrated emotional imprinting.
Take a break from ambition.
All this stuff is mental garbage when it comes to authentically realizing the peace already inherent within all human experience. Rather focus on where you are right now within your life. Your life exactly as it is right now, especially what you perceive as "difficulties", is the nutrition you require digesting in order to be at peace within your experience.
While you chase what you think you want, you miss what you already are given - a possibility beyond trying to do something fantastic so you can feel better about yourself.
You are already all you can be, like a seed is already a tree.
Germination of our human seed took place long, long ago. After germination we go through an evolution of experience: We do stuff; we root and extend above the soil. Then we think about stuff; we branch out and spread our leaves. Then we feel stuff; and so our flowering unfolds. And as we graduate, we real eyes the miracle of it; this is the fruiting.
While we are arrogant enough to assume we know the will and means of the gardener, or that we can disregard such a notion, we run around trying to do whatever it takes to avoid the divine task at hand. And we simultaneous manufacture ideas about "our goals, dreams, and personal development". And so we suffer. But this too has great purpose. Suffering also becomes pointless once this purpose fulfills itself.
Everything required is already given for us to accomplish our fruiting - if we are able to just stop ourselves long enough to perceive and receive this.
Your life as it is is no accident. The word accident is the vocabulary of the unconscious. There are no accidents - only consequence. Your life right now has great consequence. We all need you. But not to help us. And, we definitely don't need you to show us how successful you can be as 'a mortal'. Being successful as a mortal had its place, but that part of our journey too is complete. Mortality-consciousness is about to become extinct.
Rather than trying to manufacture something, realize your authentic predicament. You shall never die. Others may perceive your physical departure from this experience - and so think of you as 'gone' - but for you, there is no holiday from life. Life goes on forever AND EVER, amen.
We are so afraid to face this truth. We think one day we can 'retire' . Some of us are secretly glad we are going to die one day. Some of us want to bring this date forward. The notion of 'a death' brings some sense of relief. We want to die one day [just not actually right now] so we can get out of our current relationships, job descriptions, and boring predicaments.
However, physical death does not release us from "wherever we go, here we are". It does not absolve us of the ongoing consequence of running from our discomfort into the arms of anything that promises us relief from having to face this moment.
There is a point in our journey at which this reactive behavior is to become extinct - and we are in this moment.
It is only in this moment that all of this is unfolding. It is only in this moment we fruit. If we cannot hold our awareness within this moment - or at least intend to do our best to - the fruit is not sweetened. 'The sweetening the fruit' means bringing 'the light of the world into it' - which is the sun of our unconditional beingness.
This means deliberately stopping, turning within, and facing the discomfort within our own heart.
And, this is not about perfection either - it is about participation. What we feel now in each moment is where our most important work is.
This is also not about 'getting anything done', but about consciously being in it - as long as it takes.
It is the radiance of our unconditional being that accomplishes anything worth accomplishing. Once we are consciously radiating unconditional beingness into our experience, by feeling it as intimately and consistently as possible - then everything we do is causally activated to bring us into full, fruiting, awareness.
We are finished with 'the group work'. Group work had its place. But now we are to rejoin our authentic group by taking responsibility for our personal experience, no matter in whose company we are in. We are always within the heart of our authentic group - whether we stand among plants, animals or people.
The felt-aspect of our experience is what unites us - not our physical or mental capacity. The heart is the hinge upon which all our inteconnectedness swings.
If you seek success, then become a successful self-facilitator. Tread the road of impeccable personal intent. Be prepared to become a master of picking yourself up, because on this current winding of the home road, we are all continually falling over. Those who appear not to be are in resistance -or at least trying to stop what is unfolding. Falling over is not significant, being prepared to get up and carry on no matter what, is.
You want to know if The Presence Process can help you? This is what The Presence Process makes possible: A way of being responsible in the world regardless of the world's ongoing drama - and in spite of our own.
This is because through this procedure we draw insight from within which assists us to more clearly recognize and respond to what is required for us individually. If I am doing my best to take care of what is required of me - within my current unfolding human experience - then I automatically contribute to supporting you in what is required for you.
This is because the insight about what is required - as opposed to what I think I want to do to make me feel better about myself - is coming from the same source.
When we ride our insight, we ride in harmony with all others who are riding their insight. This brings us in harmony with the gardener. And, whenever we encounter another who is being driven chiefly by their unintegrated emotional imprint, our insight reveals how to respond, not react, to the situation.
An awareness of peace therefore arises within our experience and radiates into the experiences of others - without our fiddling with them or their experience.
But no one pats us on the back for this level of responsibility - because it is seamless. So there is no applause, degrees, and fancy awards. It is internally initiated, not outwardly projected. Some of our best work is done in the rush hour traffic, or alone in our bedroom.
So it all depends on what your intent is as to whether The Presence Process will be of use to you. It won't help you get what you want. What we want hurts us when it is driven by covering up our hurt.
This is one of the reasons why you are restless and hurting now - because of what you want.
What we each individually require is already given. It is what is happening in our life today, it is what is happening right now.
Whatever is happening to you right now is required. From a mortal-consciousness 'point of you' this realization may appear horrific, unkind, and completely heartless. But your current experience is not. It is deliberate. It is divine. And, the word "deliberate" contains the word liberate. And the word 'divine' says "dive in".
Your life right now is intended to liberate you - it is the key to the door your heart is calling you to participate in opening.
It is your sacred work to consciously feel the feelings as given you daily, without getting lost in the attached mental stories - or engaging the projected physical behavioral reactions. This is challenging. Like an art form, it is only mastered through practice - consistency - living it every day without a destination point by which to keep going.
Destination points eventually cause chronic procrastination addiction and self-sabotage.
The Presence Process teaches living responsibly because there is no choice, really, aside from ongoing suffering.
And, the discomfort we have to face within our own hearts is not actually our point of suffering; it's our trying to get away from our current discomfort that manifests the suffering. When we turn inward and face our discomfort consciously, by willingly feeling it as it reveals itself to us in each moment, the suffering part is over. The discomfort continues, and does so on various levels until full felt-perception is installed.
We are approaching this moment of full installation of felt-perception. Every day is an opportunity to integrate more heart-capacity. Each moment of integrated discomfort installs more felt-perception, and with growing felt-perception comes growing insight, and growing capacity to feel the peace already given to us all.
The Presence Process moves our experience toward authentic inner knowing and inner peace, as opposed to more outer information and striving for some manufactured experience called "happiness".
If what is written here resonates with you - give the procedure a try. Let your experience reveal what is true for you. There are many useful integrative approaches to our current human predicament available on the planet right now. The Presence Process is just one - if it does not work for you - be open to encountering an approach that is.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
A: Now you know how you are really feeling inside. Be with this anxiety whenever it arises, just as it is; it is the road leading you authentically into your own heart. Once you become comfortable being in your heart, no matter what the emotion arising, you are authentically confident.
Confidence doesn't come from from controlling how we are feeling; it comes from being at ease with whatever it is we are feeling - including anxiety.
Do you know that Bono of U2 throws up before every concert. Yet, he can still walk onto a stage in front of 1000's, or into meetings with world ambassadors. Does he not appear confident to you when appearing in public? He experiences as much anxiety as you - if not more.
Maybe you simply have no clue what confidence is? It is definitely not "being in control of your emotions". Confidence comes through being at ease with our vulnerability.
This work is not about changing or controlling what it happening through us - it is about being at ease with what is happening through. As long as we continue the journey of confiding with our heart, by feeling what it is transmitting in each moment, we develop authentic confidence.
A: I appreciate your feedback and enthusiasm.
Being in awe of my consciousness is to miss the point. Be in awe of yours. If you comprehend this work, you are functioning from the same 'point of you' as I am. Appreciate this. This work is also not who or what I am, it is simply a function I perform.
We teach this work by living it - through example - through how we carry ourselves within the mundane flow of our daily lives. This heart-work is self-facilitation - not "other-facilitation". There are no programs to accredit people to do this work; our daily life experience is the program which accredits us to do this work. The books The Presence Process and Alchemy Of The Heart invite us to engage with our own life experience in this way - they are not about becoming distracted by engaging in others life experiences as if we are responsible for them. If we try to use this work to save others, we have missed it's essence completely.
Alchemy for us individually - which is the essence of this heart-work - only takes place within our own heart - not through our mouths. When we accomplish this authentically, others are touch energetically, and then moved internally, accordingly. It begins and ends with us, and when we realize this, all others benefit.
Just as this work has found you, and you it, just when you are ready for it - trust too that others are drawn to it, and it to them, when they are ready for it. The heart knows who is ready as the readiness is purely of the heart.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Q: Is there a similarity in consequence between the approaching the vibrational practice and the activating emotional body awareness practice with the salt baths? And, after doing the activating the emotional body awareness practice one time, is it possible to accumulate those parasitic presences back again?
A: The emotional body awareness practices in Being Our Companion open the way for increased awareness of what unfolds through the Consciously Approaching The Vibration practice.
When we learn how to energetically close a door to parasites - and so to contain the energy for our own vehicle's development - it does not mean we do not have the capacity to open that door again. This is why responsibility is one of the themes of this work.
Once we assume responsibility for our energy field - then we are responsible for it.
Relying on doing anything "one time" is destination-consciousness.
A: It is a simple question: "Do you recognize your ongoing experience as being valid - or do you unconsciously dismiss it because you are searching for an experience you assume you are supposed to be having?"
Our experience, exactly as it is in each moment, is what is required for us individually. If we in any way dismiss it, like saying, "I have been doing The Presence Process, but nothing is happening...", then we are stuck. To be able to say, "nothing is happening" requires an intensity of felt-numbness. It means our capacity for felt-perception is severely subdued. This condition is exaggerated by "thinking", because we cannot think and feel at the same time.
If we are doing this process and also thinking about it intensely - we are not experiencing it at its causality - which is on the level of felt-perception. If we are doing this process in hopes of having specific experiences we have though about - then we are immune to feeling what is currently unfolding. We leap-frog over this moment into our future expectations. This is the side-effect of destination-consciousness.
We are so fixated on having an experience sold to us by others that we miss the one we are currently having. In my rewriting of The Presence Process I have removed all language that invalidates the moment. We do ourselves a great disservice when we dismiss the moment we are in as being invalid.
So, the question is very simple: "Are we aiming for an experience - at a specific thought-out outcome - to the point we are unable to recognize the one we are already in?" Because the experience we are already in, exactly as it is, is the portal into everything we seek. It is what is required of us. It is the door. When we embrace it accordingly, we are the door.
It is not that we cannot intend having a greater awareness of peace than we are experiencing right now - or an experience of more love in our lives. These are healthy intents, as long as they do not cause us to dismiss the experience we are currently in.
It is only by integrating what is happening to us now - not by dismissing it - that we evolve into the capacity to feel subtler vibrations like peace and love. If we feel "nothing is going on" - it is not our experience that is at fault - it is our capacity for felt-perception which is lacking.
This human experience is so saturated with vibration that to let it all in may be overwhelming. We say we want to know God, but cannot yet stand sitting in a room with people who appear completely different to us. Imagine sitting in a room with everything, and feeling it all at once.
Don't be in a hurry on any level with this work. Trust the process - not just in terms of The presence Process - but in the process of life itself. First we intend to become open to consciously containing the experience we are in right now - exactly as it is. If it is nothing we feel - then we develop the capacity to be at peace with the numbness of nothing. Feel the nothing without condition. Accordingly, what initially appears to you as numbness is allowed to move freely and so reveals itself as full of vibrating life.
A: No matter what experience you are having, it is valid. The real question is: Can you recognize your own experience, or are you so fixated on "having an experience other than the one you are already in" that you have become numb to what is?
Monday, September 28, 2009
A: Then be with this feeling. It is valid.
Q: A disturbing thought comes to me. Then I feel the negative charge associated with it. I know the emotional body is causal but often the thoughts seem to 'cause' the disharmony. Any insight into that? One example is upon awaking in the morning. I'll often feel pretty good. Rested. I'll lie in bed for a few seconds and BAM - a thought of a person who I'm sad about. Then my heart aches. It seems that it happens in that order.
A: Yes, when we occupy primarily a mental frequency, we perceive the story and our addictive analysis of it way before we engage the emotional signature driving it. And, for most of us, unless self-trained in this work, we miss the emotional signature altogether - because when we believe the story encasing it - we are driven into projective behaviors which take our attention outward toward physical reactivity.
This is because The Pathway of Awareness, as it moves toward causality, goes from physical, to mental, to emotional, to vibrational. We naturally engage with our imprinting from where our awareness is currently anchored. Most of us are still mentally anchored - so we get the story first - then we act it out. Consequently, by acting it out, we are moving along The Pathway of Awareness in a direction away from causality.
What is causal to there being discomfort within our human experience only becomes evident when we respond to our experience - when instead of allowing the story to drive us toward physical projection - we allow it to awaken us to emotional integration.
We can keep changing the story forever - and analysing it to death - and then nothing ever changes. The story is not causal to the quality of our experience - it is a mental expression of an energetic predicament which at its core is to be "felt" for its causality to be realized.
This realization of what is authentically causal does not come through discussion, debate, or any understanding arising from such mental activity. It comes from in-sight - seeing within through the eyes of felt-perception. This insight is a direct consequence of experiencing integration through the alchemy of felt-perception.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
These questions and comments about oneness are likely being initiated by Jordan Shafer's The Daily Now printing of excerpts from Being Our Companion [which is available on Free Downloads on the website]. I wrote this book about five or six years ago - and have not read it for a few years.
I would rather place my contribution to this discussion from the point of view of how I experience it now. This is best shared by placing an excerpt from the newly revised, The Presence Process Recreated. This book is currently being edited by David Ord of Namaste Publishing - who has told me he is making it more palatable for the readers. So, what is printed here is my pre-Ord-edited version. It unwraps oneness through the expression, "the unified field". It is just words, but I prefer this point of you.
I pop this excerpt into the unified field as my contribution to deepening our direct experience of oneness. However, discussions of the subject, for me, are a funny paradox.
This is also the first time an excerpt from the new book is being shared. Enjoy. It will be available sometime early in 2010 from Namaste Publishing.
The reason why this predicament is not clearly apparent to us is because most of our seeking and asking takes place unconsciously, driven by the emotional charge imprinted into our energy field as children. If we had the felt-capacity to peer inwardly and feel the sum of the charge of our current imprinted condition – and if we had the felt-capacity to then peer outwardly and feel the sum of the felt-resonance emanated by the emotional, mental, and physical facets of our current life experience – we would realize they are a precise match.
Therefore, when we are not in harmony with the quality of what we are now experiencing as “our life”, it is our responsibility to integrate the imprinted condition which is causal to this predicament. No one can accomplish this for us. Having the capacity to accomplish this for ourselves is what free will is. This is what The Presence Process procedure gives us the opportunity to accomplish: TO LIVE ON PURPOSE WITHIN THE UNIFIED FIELD OF THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE. Let us explore how this may be practically applied within the context of our day-today life experience:
There is a gap between us and every other human being. This gap is the space we perceive between us. This gap appears authentic because of our physical body-vehicle. In the gap between everyone else and us is where the world manifests. Our world is this gap.
Because our physical body-vehicle leads us to believe this gap is real, we believe we can be separated from others. We believe our body-vehicle is separate from the body-vehicles of others, and that we therefore have our own private physical sensations. We believe we have our own private mental body, and therefore our own thoughts. We believe we have our own heart, and therefore our own felt-states. We believe we have our own vibrational body, and therefore our own vibrational insights and revelations. This segregated perception leads us to believe that when we are not in the company of another human being, we are therefore completely on our own. Having a physical body-vehicle allows us to believe we may be totally alone in the unified field.
Yet, we all have experiences proving this is not so. Let us call these, “unified experiences”. We have seen others physically hurt themselves and immediately felt their pain within our own physical body-vehicle. We have thought about another, and then shortly thereafter, bumped into them or received a phone call from them. We have felt something behind us, and turned around to discover someone watching us. We have found that as we are about to utter a thought, someone standing next to us has expressed it exactly. We have been about to confide in someone as to how we feel emotionally, when they have pre-empted us by revealing they too are having the same emotional experience. We have also had vibrational insights and revelations we assumed unique to us, only to hear others verbalizing their encounter with the same insight and revelation.
We may call these unified experiences being psychic, transference, intuition, empathy, telepathy, and the consequence of being sensitive. It does not matter what label we give them – what matters is we adjust our perception about the nature of our paradigm according to the ongoing proof being laid before us by these unified experiences. The proof inherent in these unified experiences reveals that:
· Our physical body-vehicles, though appearing separate, are not. They are intimately, energetically, connected to each others body-vehicle.
· Our mental body is not the physical brain in our head. Its capacities extend beyond the confines of our physical body-vehicle to any distance we care to think about.
· Our emotional experience is not confined to us alone. They are shared by the world around us.
· Our ongoing and unfolding vibrational awareness is not personal and exclusive. It is universal and inclusive.
Aside from these obvious unified experiences, which the mental body dismisses as quickly as possible, what keeps us believing we are having a separate experience from others is our inability to clearly communicate what is happening to us. We do not yet realize that when explaining ourselves to others, we are constantly verbalizing the same experience to each other. We do not realize this because we are focused on our personal interpretation of the experience we are having – the mental story – and not on the felt-resonance of the experience itself. The moment we mentally interpret any experience, we personalize it, and in doing so turn it into an individual and therefore separate and seemingly segregated and isolate incident. When others cannot comprehend and relate to what we attempt mentally communicating to them, we feel a sense of separation and alienation. This then reinforces the illusion we are separate from others and may therefore have “our own experience”.
The obstacle we place before us when attempting to communicate our physical, mental, and emotional experience to each other is we are too focused on what our experience means, and not on what is happening within us on the level of pure felt-perception. Because of differing belief systems (mental stories) about the nature of experience, a specific occurrence means different things to different people. In accordance with our beliefs, we naturally see what we are looking for – which means we consistently bend the interpretation of what we experience to confirm that what we believe is true.
Another problem which occurs is when what appears before us does not fit into our personal mental story of what is possible. We then find a way to explain it away. This is the same as not seeing at all. This is the reason why the mental body continually explains away unified experiences – because they do not fit in with our present collective story which states our physical body-vehicle separates us from each other.
Therefore, there is no point in entering a debate and discussion on whether we are unified and not. Because, according to our personal stories, what “being unified” means to one person differs from what it means to another. It is more productive therefore to ignore what we think about being unified, and focus rather on what the experiences we have of being unified are already revealing to us. Let our experience be the proof. Let our experience be our teaching. Let our experience be embraced as valid.
If we think of someone and they immediately phone, why do we continue to behave as though we are separated from them? Is the overriding the proof within these blatant experiences that we are unified not enough?
As we now consciously approach the unified experience, which is the intimate connectedness of Presence within each other and all life, we also remember to what extent we are still unconsciously and perceptually enslaved by ancient imprints which are diligently passed down through the generations. These imprints translate mentally into age old beliefs systems which support the consciousness of separation. From the moment we entered our present experience, we inherited these ancient imprints through our parents – just as they inherited theirs through their parents.
Let us begin, therefore, by acknowledging that by their nature, these ancient imprints and the beliefs they spawn about “how the world is”, are out of date. Even though they are familiar and therefore comfortable to the mental body, they are ineffectual. We may acknowledge that they may at one point in our evolution have served us, but now they no longer do. Now they limit us and maintain the mistaken illusion we are separate from one another, that we may be alone, and that we have to “go out and get ours” or else we go without.
These imprints and the outdated belief systems they support are the foundations of much of our current suffering as a species. They, through the separation, segregation, racism, nationalism, and class society consciousness they encourage, are the foundations of eons of fear, anger, and grief. With the proof our current unified experiences place before us, maintaining the perception of being separate from each other on any level is madness. It is delusion and denial. It is the same as believing the earth is flat when we clearly perceive the curve of the open horizon before us.
An efficient and accelerated way to approach the updating of our perception, so we may accommodate the actuality of being unified, is to consciously invite encounters with of this unified paradigm to flood our awareness. We experientially initiate this updating by choosing from this moment onward to behave as if we are one with all life around us. In the same breath, we invite daily occurrences supporting the unified paradigm to impact our personal experience.
Ask and receive.
We activate this through cause and effect by consciously looking for experiential evidence that we are one unified body-vehicle, one unified mental matrix, one unified heart, and one unified vibrational field. By consciously looking for evidence of it, we perceive it, because cause and effect states we perceive what we are looking for.
Seek and find.
However, all of this asking and seeking hinges upon an agreement we make with ourselves: That when the experiential evidence is placed before us, we do not allow our mental body to explain it away. The best way to ensure this does not happen is to apply a procedure called containment:
Another’s agreement or disagreement with us has no bearing on the validity of what we experience. When we do not attempt explaining these unified experiences to others, they cannot be explained away. When we have a unified experience, and instead contain it, we digest it. The nutritional benefit of holding these experiences within is our faith in the unified paradigm grows into “a knowing”. This knowing permeates our awareness and behavior in spite of what the world’s ancient imprinting propagates. Faith does not require outer support – only belief does.
Anyone verbally informing us that “we are one” speaks from a point of segregated consciousness. Authentically being unified is a feeling that extends naturally into our behavior – not a conversation seeking validation, debate, or discussion.
After agreeing to contain and digest our experience, we can then accelerate the process of inviting this unified paradigm to flood our awareness: We accomplish this by taking an active step towards having this paradigm confirmed – we choose to live this way on purpose. Accomplishing this is simple. Accomplishing this is what The Presence Process procedure leads us toward. This is the invitation inherent in experiencing Presence. Being unified is the terrain of Present Moment Awareness, because experiencing unification with all life forms is only possible in the present. The present is the unified field.
Let us now place our attention back into the gap we perceive existing between us – the gap in which the world exists. In this gap between us, there is stuff – plenty of it. We know what the stuff is in the gap between us because we agree upon the names we give to the individual components.
For example, when we place a pen into the gap between us, we both know what it is because we agree about what we call this particular item and what its purpose is. Because of this agreement, we may then say, “Please pass me the pen?” or “Please refill the pen with ink for me?” Because of this agreement, we understand each other without debate and discussion. We understand each other because we are not debating and discussing what the pen is and what its purpose is. We agree upon these things.
This is the nature of all the items found in the gap between us – they all have a name and a purpose. The names of the different items appearing in the gap between us are mostly agreed upon. The names may change, because the person using the item may speak a different language, but beyond making the translation, we generally agree a pen is a pen, a car is a car, and a house is a house.
Where difference of opinion occurs, where the meaning of the item becomes relevant in the experience of the user, and where debate, discussion, and possible misunderstanding may occur about any particular item, is in the nature of its purpose. The pen itself, like all items appearing in the gap between us, is neutral. Of itself it has no purpose, and therefore no meaning. The user provides meaning and purpose, and it is at this point which the experience becomes shared or separated.
To be able to look beyond the gap, we require remembering how to perceive beyond the trinity making up the structure of the transience of our human experience. We require training ourselves to place no overriding significance on the behavior, appearance, and life circumstance of the expression of Presence before us in any given moment. Why? Because these aspects of Presence are constantly changing and therefore not authentic. They are not causal and not to be perceived as such. They are part of the veil of illusion between us and what is forever unchanging. When we – through felt-perception – look across the gap and perceive what is beyond these changing expressions, we realize it is always the same Presence before us. There is only one Presence. Presence is shared – it is us, unified.
Our interaction and relationship with the items in the gap also determines whether we are opening or closing the gap. We may use the items of this world to serve either purpose, because the items have no inherent purpose of their own. We may agree that everything in the gap we call “the world” is neutral, because it is. A bomb is a lump of stuff until we assign its purpose. A rose is just another flower until we give it to someone we love. We may agree the items are neutral because the user supplies the meaning and purpose of the items found within the gap. The user decides whether a pen writes love letters or hate mail. When we write love letters – we close the gap. When we write hate mail – we open the gap. The choice is ours, and our ongoing experience of life is a consequence of the choice we make and intent we set. It is this simple. It is this obvious. Or not.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
A: Only when we approach The Presence Process with desperation driving our intent - to try and "get somewhere as fast as possible" - can we become destructive toward ourselves through it. Because then we unnecessarily add things to it because we do not really believe it is efficient. We assume more hours and effort attain more and quicker results. The Presence Process is not about results - it is about consequence.
If I brush my teeth for three hours straight because I want to remove years of stains immediately - my gums bleed and I make them so raw that I am not able to eat, and I also open myself to unnecessary pain and infection.
If doing three hours of yoga a day is already part of my daily beingness, like brushing my teeth, then The Presence Process cannot possibly couple with it to cause harm. If I brush my teeth five minutes longer twice a day with the right tooth paste there are favorable consequences.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
A: Clarity is not a destination.
When we are aware of the felt-aspect of each experience we move through - and are committed to responding to each felt-experience as it arrises by being with it without condition - then we continually birth activity from within this attitude of response.
In each moment our arising responsive activity reflects the requirments of the unique unfolding moment we are currently in. Therefore, when we commit to responding to the causal point of the quality of our experience - through unconditionally feeling the felt-aspect of the moment we are currently in - we are achieving clarity.
The present moment contains all there is, was, and shall ever be. Responding to it unconditionally through felt-perception taps into this fountain of enernity and radiates into our entire experience accordingly.
Activity arising out of response is imbedded with insight - and thus resonantes as "clarity".
Saturday, September 19, 2009
A: In our naivety we are able to become irresponsible. Your situation is the consequence of this single sentence from your email: "Without any spiritual maturity I dared to state an intention to dismantle the entire imprinting before my last journey." Rather ask for gentleness, and to be able to receive what is being given, rather than to get carried away with trying to get what you think you want.
Reshape your intent accordingly - and include the word "gentleness" in there somewhere. Who stated it is your task to clear all your imprinting in one go. This is not about destination. This is not even about "perfection" - it is about full-participation. When we take one aware heartfelt step at a time, all of creation takes ten for us. Stop behaving as if you are alone in this, and therefore that you can decide what should and should not be integrated. When we behave as if we are alone in this experience - as if we can decide what is necessary - in complete disregard of all who enter and exit our environment - then we are behaving like a cancer cell in the body of all there is.
Each day we are each given enough to digest - asking for a whole lifetime of meals in one sitting is foolish. Realign your intent from "wanting and getting" to "giving and receiving".
You have glimpsed The kingdom. Remember that the resonance of entry in The Kingdom is "responsibility". Not responsibility for everything and everyone - like dictators assume they are - but rather responsibility for the felt-aspect of each encounter within the life flowing through your experience. Meet life exactly where it meets you - rather than leapfrogging into a "place" you "think" you are supposed to be in.
Everyone is already in The Kingdom - no one ever left - and realizing this is inevitable. This life experience is what it takes to enter consciously and responsibly into the realization. We require acquiring this experiential resonance of responsibility so we do not mess with those who already gather joyfully in The Garden. If we gain entry by forcing ourselves to integrate everything immediately - then we impose this attitude upon those who are already at peace within their experience.
Apparently, they don't allow such adult behavior in The Garden of God's children. Saint Peter stands at the gate and asks each of us a question. If we answer as an adult- we get sent to the back office for deprogramming until we are able to giggle again. If we giggle at the question, we are given an all access pass.
Returning to The kingdom is wonderful - to be sure. However, to miss the mysterious and magical journey through the a-maze-ment of our approach - because we are in a hurry to "get somewhere" - is to miss the point and pleasure of the play. We are already here - "Be still and know that I am odd" - an this too is wonderful.
Friday, September 11, 2009
A: The heartbreak you have recently experienced is in itself a surfacing of a memory. It is something that has reoccurred in your life previously. It is something passed onto you through your parents. It took your recent encounter with "being with someone you wanted", and then experiencing the loss, to activate and bring this ancient memory to the surface.
It has nothing to do with this person you perceive yourself to have lost. She was simply the Angel who came to cleave this deeply hidden hurt from the center of your heart and pull it out into the light of your awareness. To focus upon her, or what happened to cause this sudden eruption of grief, is to misaligned your attention and intent.
The feeling of grief is your only hope now. Whenever the tears arise - cry. Do not let reasons and stories and self-assessment flow through these tears. Allow yourself to cry because you feel the grief of something deeply ancient that you cannot put words to. Sink into it unconditionally whenever the opportunity presents itself and you will realize, when you are able to let go the story, that it leads from "your grief" into "our grief". It only appears to be your grief while you are stuck in the "y". Let go the "y" of "your" and all that is left is our.
This is not personal - although - for you to engage with it and play your part in the integration of the collective human imprint - it comes to you as something that appears to have deeply personal impact. So cry tears as long as the body and heart gives them to you to cry. There is no schedule here.
The flow of these tears washes you into the realm of felt-perception in which the heart of The Kingdom is felt as a reality. Then the person with whom this heartbreaking encounter occurred is revealed as the Angel sent from within The Kingdom to facilitate your return. Your tears are valid. Honor them accordingly. Whatever it takes, for heaven's sakes.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
A: Your experience is valid and, because it is happening, required. It is an intimate teaching for you coming from within your direct experience. What you are likely encountering is a primal communication coming from within what I call "our indigenous self". This "shaking" is wonderful, integrating, and well worth exploring. Surrender to it and allow it to lead you.
Not being any authority on "shaking medicine", I recommend you explore the profound work of Bradford Keeney at http://shakingmedicine.com/ Many individuals coming to The Presence Process discover it awakens this primal aspect of their experience. My insight is if The Presence Process naturally initiates this, then be curious and explore it. Bradford Keeney is impeccable in his approach and teaching about this aspect of our humanity. He is an Elder of Shaking Medicine, and acknowledged as such by the its keepers across the planet.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Q: I am in the 4th week of my second time through and my situation has changed completely this round. I recently became unemployed, live with my mom, and I don't really have any friends. My basic needs are taken care of, so I have all the time in the world 'to do' or to 'not do' whatever and whenever I want. I am finding it HARDER THAN EVER to stay committed to the process. The breathing sessions have pretty much become apart of my life. My trouble is with the presence statements and the perceptual tools. I am alone 90% of my time and I feel like I would be repeating the statements for 16 hours a day if I was to repeat them when I am not mentally engaged. I do sit with my feelings and my Inner Presence for about 2 hours a day and I have a couple hobbies but there seems to be no relief from the boredom and the mind chatter. Any insights?
A: Go volunteer at a homeless shelter or charity organization. The Presence Process is not a job or social activity. If you treat it as one you will feel immense resistance.
A: It is important you take these reflections to heart - in that they are offerings to you from all the family you encountered. The only valid aspect of the experience is your direct felt-experience of it. Understand that your family bring you this salad of felt-discomfort [dismiss all story] because you are the only one among them who has the training, capacity, integrity, and willingness to render them into the fire of alchemy. You are the family alchemist. The peace is already spoken for. However, right now, as our human journey enters the portal of our becoming, time is short. We are here now. We are at the door. Much is to be integrated in a short space of time before the door handle moves and the light of The Kingdom radiates through. We are now integrating more in a day than our grandparents did in an entire lifetime. Do not view this uncomfortable encounter with your family as a failure - but as a barometer of how successful you are at your work. They bring to you what only you have the capacity to integrate. They do not bring peace and harmony - because this is already given - they bring you the last bits of laundry that require washing before the adornment of our collective divine destiny. Feel it all with as much desire to change it as you would when watching a bird in a tree: We see the bird, but we do not try to pin it down or direct its movement with our attention. We watch it in a manner that allows it to fly free - without any interference - no entering fear about it. Your current encounter with your family is a set up to show you intimately what of the collective family imprint still requires bathing in the alchemical fire of unconditional love. Now you are clear about this residue. You feel it intimately within your own body. Be with it as if it is the current of love itself - awakening from the long sleep of time - and so shall it reveal itself to be. Within the intimacy of your own felt-experience you bless it with your unconditional felt-awareness. Nothing to do - everything to be.
Be patient. All is as it is required to be. You have not been brought this far to be let down - only to be raised up. By feeling all this discomfort within yourself you now have the experiential capacity to stand at the door and speak for your family with the love you feel for them in your heart. And so they are also taken through.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
A: Until you are connecting with the emotional signature underlying the pain - you are not yet at the level of integrating the causality. Accomplishing integration of 5 years of chronic pain in one week is unrealistic. I see no evidence in your email that you are even slightly aware of your authentic emotional condition. You are still fixated upon symptoms - which is a natural place to enter this work when in chronic pain. However, it is recommended you elevate your intent so as to rise above being physically and mentally transfixed. Being physically-transfixed is all about manipulating our physical circumstances to feel better. Being mentally-transfixed is all about tying our experience to schedules, agendas, plans, and time allotments. None of this relevant to emotional body integration. Symptom-mentality is destination-consciousness. This work is not for fast-food mentality - it is a journey into personal responsibility. When "personal responsibility" becomes the color of our intent - then we becoming increasingly vulnerable to integration of symptoms.
I know you have pain now, but, in spite of this, do your best to focus on "personal responsibility as a way of life" - rather than symptom eradication as a planned agenda. Comprehending the word "current" may assist you to realign your intent:
When we focus on symptoms we are a tin can regarding the can opener as our enemy. Our pain is the can opener - it is occurring within our experience to open us up to the possibilities of "being a conscious vibrational presence currently residing in the physical, mental, and emotional realm".
Once we connect with the causality of pain - which is the emotional felt-experience underlying it - and are able to be with this unconditionally - we are in training for accomplishing a profound level of personal responsibility. Once we truly accept this responsibility - regardless of the experience which is currently unfolding - acute symptomatic conditions no longer have foundation for manifestation.
We cannot fool the body. The body is a manifestation of what is current - and until our imprints are integrated - it is a manifestation of what is resisting what is current. Nor can we fake the resonance of authentic personal responsibility. In this light, symptoms are our honest teachers. They remain steadfast until the insight is fully received and consciously digested. The insight is not about the tin can getting rid of the can opener, or about the tin can perceiving the can opener as an enemy. In this light, pain is our friend. Because it only occurs in the moment, it keeps us in the present moment. Pain is always current.
Examine the word "current". It has a double meaning: It means "now" as much as it means "vibrational flow". When our awareness is current - our awareness is aligned vibrationally. This is what the pain comes to teach you - to consciously become current.
Showing up in what is current does not take a week. It is an art form. "Though ART in heaven." We were taught that, "Heaven is now at hand" - or, translated into updated vocabulary, "The Vibrational Realm is accessed through being current". Vibrational awareness is not accomplished because we grasp the necessity mentally. It, like any art form, takes consistent application. It takes learning and practicing the procedures which hook us into what is current until we become masterful. We only become masterful when we no longer require these deliberate procedures - when we are being current as a way of life.
We live upon a planet where our awareness of current is exponentially increasing toward a crescendo. Like a birthing. Unless we remain current within the focus of our awareness, we are likely experiencing this exponential increase in awareness of current as chaos, conflict, upset, a sense of dismantling of our safety measures, symptomatic pain, fear, anger, and grief. When consciously riding the current - by keeping our attention unconditionally aligned with our felt-perception of what is - we experience this unfolding journey as waves - as inflows of energy arising cyclically within our experience like tides rolling in - then moments of emptiness/nothingness which allow space for integration - which when integrated deliver deepening insights about what is - and then more waves rolling in again. And so it shall continue for the next few years. If we cannot contain what is current - we cannot hold onto our physical vehicle. Accordingly, The Final Judgement is not a religious thing at all - it is determined purely by our capacity for conscious, unconditional containment of what is.
You are experiencing these increasing waves as pain. Your pain is current calling you to become current. The current does not want you to fix or understand it - it seeks your unconditional embrace of it so it may deliver you from The Boredom into The Kingdom.
The more we develop our capacity for containment - for being unconditionally within the flow of current without turning the experience into a mental story - the more ease there is within the experience.
The can opener is a gift of current - it opens us up to what is current. When our intent is aligned accordingly - and when we choose not perfection - but full-participation - our major symptomatic indicators integrate. All pain is current being perceived through the perceptual matrix of our ancient emotional imprints. There is only current - and current is love.
Intend to love your pain without condition. Become current.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
A: Good question. Your movement is valid. Allow it. The capacity to sit still while breathing comes as we integrate the emotional charges underlying the drive to move - whether this drive feels spontaneous or not. You will however discover, as you proceed, that by not moving - you fast enter into felt-contact with the emotional charge underlying your inability to sit still. But do not force stillness. Movement is release. Stillness promotes resolution. Often, some release work is required before approaching resolution is possible. So, be with your experience as it is, and allow it to unfold from movement into stillness. It will do so as required. Be patient.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
A: The fact you use the word "banish" means you still are missing the point of this work. This work is not about "banishing" aspects of our experience as if there is something wrong - it is about embracing all aspects of our experience as if they are all required. This is why I no longer use the word "heal" or "healing" in my vocabulary. I no longer seek to heal any aspect of my experience - however, it is my intent to integrate it all.
When doing emotional integration work it is recommended we take care of any manifesting symptom. This is obvious. We take care of our body-vehicle. However, it is important we do not try to force any physical, mental, or emotional outcome we assume necessary - because then we cannot be functioning "without condition" - which is required for authentic integration.
When an emotional signature is integrated - its physical manifestation has no foundation and thus is neutralized. However, we cannot be the judge of this, as emotional signatures are multi-dimensional. Often their symptomatic manifestations return so as all dimensions of the imprint achieve full integration. Until we have developed full felt-perception capacity, we cannot absolutely know that an imprint is completely integrated. To use our physical experience as a barometer of whether an emotional signature is integrated is therefore not reliable. To take this approach is to become result-orientated, destination-conscious, and conditional.
To focus only on "getting rid of the physical symptom" causes us to subtly enter a manipulative stance - and then before we know it - we are again controlling or sedating our physical experience [with the best of intentions of course] in an attempt to "heal ourselves". Most self-professed "healers" are actually practicing "manipulation" - especially if they are in any way invested in the removal of physical symptoms as a barometer of their efficiency.
Emotional integration work is not about healing - or about feeling better. It is about engaging with our life experience in a responsive manner - one which gradually trains us to become responsible for the causality of the quality of our experience regardless of whether we are in physical discomfort or not.
This requires getting better at feeling, not focusing on feeling better. While we remain fixated by the physical manifestation of our emotional charges - this level of ongoing responsibility is seldom attained.
If having physical discomfort is the only reason we behave responsibly - then our behavior is not responsible at all - it is actually reactionary. We are responsible for how we feel whether we are physically uncomfortable or not.
My suggestion is you stop trying to "heal yourself" and rather focus on becoming integrative.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
A: First of all, your tiredness is not tiredness, it is unconsciousness. It is deeply suppressed emotional content - which when surfacing - expresses itself in our waking state as tiredness. So, stop calling it tiredness, because this misrepresents what you are going through.
Everyone to some extent experiences this when processing unintegrated emotion - and as you are testimony to - some more than others. The only way out is through. Which means, keep doing your emotional integration work and calm down about it. It is going to take as long as it takes. Some of our emotional imprints are 1000's of years old, and we, in our impatient, fast-food-mentality, assume we can process them all in a couple of weeks. So, continue your work and be patient.
If you do wish to move more deeply at an accelerated pace - and sincerely feel this is what you require - then go to the link on the menu column of my website and click on "Personal Facilitation". Through this you can find a Transformational Breath Facilitator or one of their workshops where you can be facilitated through Breathwork into accelerated integration. They are an international organization and so will assist you to find someone nearby.
Secondly, there is a difference between release and resolution. Release assists us to feel better, while resolution requires we get better at feeling. Release is screaming into a pillow, while resolution is being with the feelings of anger without any outer projection of them. Release is a deliberate outer expression of suppressed emotional content, while resolution is the conscious containment of suppressed emotional content. Most of us begin with release-work - just to let off some steam and create some breathing room within our experience - and then we move on to resolution and the art of alchemy through containment.
You may still require release - so scream into a pillow once a day for about 15 minutes for about seven days - but do not get addicted to the high of it. It is only release, and although you may feel better afterwards - it will not assist you to get better at feeling.
In your entire question I saw no indication that you are yet aware of the emotional signature underlying your experience of unconsciousness. Tiredness is not an emotional signature. My sense is you are annoyed, which means you are angry. This is most likely because you are a mentally-transfixed individual new to emotional work. Intend to tap into and feel this anger as fully as possible. Underneath it is grief. What you require is a good sob for no reason at all - which will be hard for you as you will most likely currently also want to know how/when/where/what/who and why you are sobbing to allow it to happen. Be patient with yourself.
Also, make sure you have listened to the audios on the website of the breathing technique so that you are doing the consciously connected breathing correctly.
The more mentally-transfixed we are, the more likely we are to feel this unconsciousness as we attempt integration of emotional imprinting. Let go all the thinking about this work. This "violet fire" stuff you talk about, that your healer friend suggested, is called metaphysics - and all metaphysics is simply mental-physics. When it comes to emotional resolution [as opposed to release] it accomplishes nothing authentic, because the mental body is not the causal point of the human experience. It is a great tool to use for release - but nothing authentic comes about when using it in this manner. You can waste your time in the mental realm for 100's of years - or you can stop all the thinking, visualizing [pretending], and all other make-belief stuff the mental body loves and start feeling what is without condition.
The unconsciousness you feel is real. It has come to assist you with integration. Stop trying to get rid of it so as to arrive somewhere else. Be where you are now within your experience as fully as possible - this moment you are in, just as it is, is the portal to all else. While you still try to manipulate it to accomplish something you "want" - you remain stuck.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
A: Firstly, extract your attention from the event and the story you tell about this. It only keeps you in victim and victor mentality - which although may for a while feel empowering - accomplishes nothing causal. You extract your attention from these aspects of the experience through entering unconditional felt-perception of the residue.
When entering Present Moment Awareness, what becomes clear to us, is that if something happened - it was required. Asking why at this point of the game is futile.
Whatever happened within our past is the consequence of previous experiences we had - experiences often occurring well before the perceptual borders of our current life experience.
If you only believe in "one life" - like some religious people do - then you are stuck in a world of meaningless and chaotic activity - one in which there is a vicious God who does things for absolutely no reason at all. However, when we realize we live forever - and that this current experience is one of countless - we also realize that this life experience is full of incidents which make no sense if this current life experience is the only barometer from which we measure "consequence".
However, realizing this experientially is not necessary in order to impact the causality of our experience. The fear you feel now is the causality. Underneath it is anger, and underneath this is grief. Your only task is to be with this fear without condition through direct felt-perception. Drop the event, and story about the event, as having any relevance within your intent to integrate this experience. We cannot integrate through understanding, blame, or revenge.
Consuming heroin and for being gang raped was 100% required. You simply cannot yet perceive the causal activity which unfolded, possibly over many life experiences, to eventually manifest such an event. In another experience you may well have been a heroin pusher and a gang raper. At this point in the game we have all been everything - this is why judgment is futile and ridiculous. We have moved through the darkness as willingly as we have moved through the light.
Our only choice now is drama, or dharma. To access the dharma, we feel without condition the arising emotional states within our life experience right now. There is no requirement for mentally investigating the past - such activity is useless to us now. The past is forever present within the felt-resonance of our current experience. We therefore engage with it not mentally, but through direct, unconditional, felt-resonance.
Any other path leads us out of the moment and into a time-based mentality - which is madness. Feel your fear unconditionally - it will transform into anger - feel your anger unconditionally - it will transform into grief - feel your grief unconditionally - and then you shall know the meaning of the teaching: "Blessed are those who mourn - for they shall be comforted."