I have done The Presence Process twice but still experience "Hellish" experiences in the early hours of the morning...

Q: I have completed the Presence Process for the 2nd time and, although I have moments, even days of feeling thankful and close to the presence around me and in me, I still wake around 2 am in intense fear of some unknown horror in the future. “Hellish” thoughts of death and illness and poverty, along with a feeling of being victimized by intense hatred last until around 4 am and then go like a thunder and lightning storm that passes by and leaves peace in its wake. I have assumed it has its cause in the fundamentalist religion I was raised in, but would like your input.

A: We live in a moment of great integration. We have imprinting that is multi-layered beyond our current mental comprehension. We live on a planet that has hosted millions upon millions of civilizations, which have all risen and fallen. We live in a solar system that goes through cycles of creation and devastation so vast, our poor mental body cannot begin to fathom. Some of us have been here through it all, just as some of us are temporary visitors. Now, we yet again move through the ending and beginning of another great cycle. Yet, in of itself, it is a blinking of an eye. As we do so, we are offered great opportunities to integrate. Integration is the key to evolutions doorway.

Those of us hypnotically paralysed by our past [all of us] believe we are here to earn a living, boost our bank accounts, become somebody of importance, bring world peace, and other such pointless but entertaining endeavors. Our destination-mentality, and hence, the mortality-consciousness this mentality propagates, causes us to repeatedly shoot ourselves in the foot - and then we moan about our limp. We grasp at whatever comes our way as a means to feel better, to get what we want, and to satisfy the charged emotions of our generational imprinting. We cannot discern between what we want and what is now required. While we function in this manner, we miss the bigger picture - an opportunity to integrate the fear, anger, and grief causing us to continually re-manufacture experiences in which we suffer.

The Presence Process is not like The Secret or any technology wielding concepts like The Law Of Attraction for personal gratification. It is not another metaphysically-drive slight of hand convincing us we can have exactly what our unintegrated emotional content drives us towards. It is not designed to deliver unto us a brand new car, great job, perfect partner, and to convince us that "an unlimited universe means we can keep raping this planet just to get our rocks off". This procedure is to initiate and support integration, to clean the vessel of our awareness so it has the opportunity and capacity to open to, arrive at, move through, and jettison beyond the current opening of the portal into vibrational consciousness. This portal is here, now. It is always "here", "now". Its just that because of our evolutionary development we only now have the capacity to perceive and hence realize it. The portal into vibrational consciousness is "this, here, now" - not "that, there, then". This portal is only accessible within this moment - within the present. To enter it we are required to be present.

As we continue to consciously approach the resonance of the present moment we are faced with all that is keeping our attention stretched out and fragmented in time-based mentality. We thus face the unintegrated experiences of our childhood, received from our parents, with our lovers, through our religions, politics, and many, many other levels of developmental experience we have moved through to arrive in this moment. There is horror in it all just as there is love in it all. We have all experienced massive apocalyptic cataclysm and been traumatized by being run over by sudden shifts for which we were not ready. We have seen everything and everyone we love seemingly destroyed, drowned, burned, and murdered in cold blood. This is the fabric of our past - not our future. This is what we are now called to integrate.

Yet, while we remain unintegrated, then as we approach the portal of this moment, these unintegrated memories are what guard the entry to the portal. They say, "While you believe in us more than the promise of what you truly are, then we stand between you and this realization. You must pass through us to know we are not real, or run from us back into the illusions which inspire more experiences just like us."

As we approach the portal of the present moment, we all project our apocalyptic mayhem upon its entrance. This is how we know we have arrived at the entrance of the portal - because we simultaneously arrive at an experience mirroring our unresolved horrors. It gazes upon us as a future possibility - yet, it is an echo of the past. Many shall be driven by their unintegrated horror into actions which are self-destructive, and hence lose their physical vehicle. Fewer shall realize the cinematic illusion of it all and keep moving forward in spite of the dire warnings of impending cataclysm. The only way to enter the heart - the portal through which we awaken beyond the horrors of the past - is to gaze directly into the eyes of this monster, and to be with it through felt-perception without condition. Feel it all. It cannot kill what cannot die - it can only destroy what has no substance.

So, in the early hours of the morning, when the doorway of the portal awakens you from your desire to "sleep it off" - get up - and approach the vibrational consciously. Sit quietly in the midst of the horror and know it is not the future, unless you act as if it is. It already happened. We already died many, many times. The only death required now is to die to this idea of dying. This planet is a way-station for dead people who have not yet processed their experience of living in time - who have not yet integrated their past so they may arrive consciously into the kingdom of the awakened. This moment upon planet earth is an accentuated opportunity for all seeking to catch the next train inward by integrating the horror, and to receive our divine inheritance as conscious co-creators of unlimited possibility.

So, instead of tossing and turning and blaming your fundamentalist religious past for you not being able to "sleep it off", rather arise and spend this time focused upon the vibrational certainty which is your birthright. The only way through is through. Onward, inward, and upward.

How to breathe for The Presence Process.

Q: I have been doing connected breathing for about 3 weeks. During few sessions I went into very deep relaxation, in that state my inhales and exhales become very slow, very short and the gap between my exhale and inhale becomes very large. What am I suppose to do in this situation? Should I just let it be or should I do something about it.

A: When you enter deep relaxation breathing you are no longer breathing efficiently for the purpose of emotional integration - for The Presence Process intent. The intent for the breathing practice within The Presence Process is not necessarily the same as for rebirthing, breathwork, various yoga breathing, or meditative breathings. The intent of The Presence Process is emotional integration. This requires alert breathing, breathing loud enough to hear one's breath, and remaining within a brisk breathing pattern throughout the 15 minute practice. I intend communicating this in a clearer manner in the new edition of The Presence Process. For now I have placed on The Presence Portal three different audio examples, 5 minutes each, of how I recommend breathing be practiced for The Presence Process. http://www.thepresenceportal.com/how_we_breathe.htm This is not how we are taught to breathe through breathwork or rebirthing or yoga practice - which is deeper, more relaxed, etc. When we breathe in this way - as demonstrated by these audios - pausing between breaths is not an issue. These three 5 minute audios [beginner, intermediary, and pro] enable you to breathe in time with me for the first 5 minutes of your practice - and then to continue on your own.

NOTE: Sometimes these audios do not open in Windows. I do not know why, so please do not write and ask me what to do if you are having this problem. It is best to ask someone who is computer literate - which I am not.

What about The Presence Process for children?

Q: Have you worked out, or come across, something like The Presence Process for children? We have an 8-year-old who is following in the pattern of his angry, lazy, and cocky older brother -- very hard to manage, even at this age. I've done whatever I could with BodyTalk, but....

A: It's your pattern. It is in you. Fiddling with the child is the parent cleaning the mirror to rid the pimples it is reflecting. I have often been asked by parents to write The Presence Process for children. Alchemy requires "We do unto ourselves as we would have others do". This means you require integrating your angry, lazy, cocky self. Until you do, your children roll play this suppressed aspect of your own emotional condition so you may perceive outwardly what you hide inwardly. If you do not take care of this through alchemy, your children become parents who hand it - like you have done - to their children. The Presence Process is not for, or about, messing with children. It is for adults to take responsibility for the imprinting shared with their children. I recommend inner child work before outer child interference.

What happens if I do not have a bath tub for the water sessions?

Q: I was wondering, because i don't have a bath, do you think it is a good idea to use a warm shower as a substitute? I put today my solar plexus area under the shower and it felt like dying.

A: Yes. This is one of the changes I am making to the text of the new edition of The Presence Process. Increasingly, in this day and age, we do not have bath tubs - we only have access to showers. This says something about our willingness, as a species, to submerge ourselves in warm water - which is a metaphoric representation of allowing our awareness to fully enter the authentic condition of our emotional body. The recommendation is therefore to use the tools at our disposal. When we do not have a bath tub, behave as if this is required. Then, a 10 to 15 minute hot shower, before drying off and attending to our breathing practice, is efficient. We are still exposing ourselves to "wet heat" - and this still impacts the fabric of our experience within The Presence Process - as you have already realized.

What is it that actually heals?

Q: In going through some recent journals I realize I've been digging IN to these CAUSAL places for many, many years. I have felt the pain of these childhood wounds, not as concepts but emotionally, deeply. I've gone to these places and felt them and written about them afterwards and they're still effecting my life now. What's the difference between those experiences and The Presence Process? What neutralizes these feelings - what makes them healed - known instead of understood? I'd appreciate some light.

A: What my experience reveals is that viewing anything as something needing healing - and thinking and writing about it in these terms - keeps us stuck. Especially when we engage with them in such a way as to keep the experiences in question somehow anchored in the mental realm - whether through understanding, analysis, or explanation. Yet, we cannot help ourselves - especially while we worship the mental body as God.

Apparently, the most challenging thing to communicate to another human being is "being without condition", "not-doing", "response", and "complete surrender to what is". Why? Because it cannot be understood. The mental body cannot grasp being. It does not have the capacity and while we allow it to be Godlike, we fail to be. We remain in a "I think therefore I am" state of insanity.

The radiance of being without condition is what integrates. It is the approach of "being with what is through felt-perception without any attempt to physically, mentally, or emotionally alter the experience". When we are authentically this way with ourselves, integration unfolds organically - not according to our mental schedule.

I really felt that after writing Revelation Of Being there would be no necessity for me to write another word, ever. Because this piece hits the nail on the head. Done. Apparently not. I really felt that after writing and sharing the practice, Consciously Approaching Vibrational Awareness, that there would be no reason for me to place another experiential approach to an awareness of being before anyone - because when one applies this practice consistently, EVERYTHING is given and received. Apparently this landed mostly on deaf ears too. We are apparently immune to receiving as we are adamant about getting and fiddling. Now I know why, at a satsang one find day, when questioned by a disciple about what the meaning of it all is, Buddha simply produced a flower, held it up for a few moments, then got up and walked off.

We are so mental. We are so lost. We keep trying to understand the difference between something that cannot be understood and something else that cannot be understood. My personal experience is the time it takes for us to integrate what Being Without Condition is, is the exact time it takes for us to accomplish discernment between "wants" and "requirements". Simple. Done.

We want so badly to heal, when only being with what is is required. There is a big difference between The Presence Process and keeping a journal. A journal does not deliver us deliberately along The Pathway Of Awareness to the causality of our disquiet. A journal keeps us stuck in the mental realm. A journal, for the most part, is our personalized Ode to Drama, not a vehicle for accessing Dharma. However, it can be.

I am so grateful there are those who have contacted me and said, "That article, Being Without Condition, that's it right there...I'm done!" And, I am so glad some write to me and say, "That practice for Conscious Approach to the Vibrational is home base!" Otherwise I would assume myself completely bloody nuts. Okay, no assumption required - I already know I am completely nuts. This is required. I am also grateful I am able - to a larger extent - be available to this work without condition. The miracle of "being available to this work without condition" means I get to discover 84356 ways to say: Feel whatever is happening without condition. Whatever is happening to you is valid. It is required. It is your teaching. You are not required to heal your lessons - only to learn from them - to gain insight - and even if you don't - this too is valid.

The paradox in all of this is hysterical. Now I know why some say that when authentically approaching an awareness of whatever God is - there is first the sound of laughter. God sends us our daily lessons and we try to heal them. It's hilarious!!! Laughter is the medicine we are after - especially when it is laughter turned inward upon the point of greatest hilariousness.

The simple answer to your question is: Once we stop trying to heal that which is sent to heal us - we heal.

I wonder if the the can perceives the can opener as something which has to be healed?

I have done TPP three times and am still not getting what I want!

Q: I have done the process 3 times now, read all that is on your site and saw you in California. And, I still require something that I do not understand or get. My partner left me after a 16 month affair. She left many things at our home we built together, she will not pay the mortgage, she left her 15 year old cats and I care for them, she comes by 4-5 times a week, we do things together, she has just lost her job. She says she loves me, she says loving things to me, tells me not to ask her to come home , it is okay to tell her I love her , want her back but this seems not about her so much as I cannot figure out how to get me back?? Could you suggest what direction to go, please?

A: The only reason we can make a statement like "I'm stuck", or ask a question like this one, is because we are not yet able to discern between "a want" and "a requirement". Let me assist you with definition.

"A want" is something that is not happening. We want it to happen, but it doesn't. We get upset because it doesn't. We get upset or set up because our "wants" are arising out of an unintegrated emotional charge. Whatever we are wanting is whatever we believe will satisfy the insatiable hunger of our unintegrated emotional charge. Because this hunger is insatiable - because feeding an emotional charge only maintains it, as opposed to bringing it to resolution - whenever we receive our wants they only lead us to want something else.

"A requirement" happens. This is how we recognize a requirement. If it is happening, it is a requirement. We do not want requirements. We do not expect requirements. We do not appreciate requirements. While we remain emotionally unintegrated, our requirements appear as things that get in the way of us achieving our wants. Only the emotionally mature are able to live life through responding to requirements.

Attempting to feed and satisfy our wants leads to personal and collective drama and depression. Attempting to satisfy our wants leads to raping the earth, manipulating those we profess to love, and behaving as if we are separate from the rest of the universe. Our wants, and us trying to satisfy them, are the causal point of the current world economic recession. They are the causal point of war, whether through politics, priesthood, or profiteers. If we ignored our wants - priests, politicians, and profiteers would be the only ones in recession. "The American Dream" is a disguised way of saying, "This is a country in which everyone can have exactly whatever they want". And, so, as the rest of the world blindly follows "the American way" the consequential collective nightmare awakens. Imagine exchanging "The Pursuit of Happiness" for "The Realization of Joy", or "The American Dream" for "The American Vision" - what a shift in intent. This is the same sort of shift we require within ourselves - from frantically feeding our wanting, to calmly recognizing and embracing what is required of us.

Embracing what is required by responding to what is happening as if what is happening is valid leads to emotional growth and integration. It leads to individual and collective evolution. All requirements are overseen and delivered into our individual and collective experience by the universe. They are what are required for our evolution. If we insist on only navigating our experiences according to our wants - then invariably what is required is immense suffering - suffering intended to awaken us to the reality that chasing only our wants is self-destructive.

Our wants are not required.

Responding to requirement leads to personal and collective evolution - to harmony, integration, and our functioning as if we are part of everything. Through responding to what is required we move in flow with The Giver - through trying to feed our wants we move in flow with the dictates of a distorted energetic pattern within our emotional body.

Responding to requirement leads to presence and present moment awareness. The Presence Process is not about "getting our wants fulfilled" - it is about opening us to receiving what we require - to receive what is already being given to us in each moment of our unfolding experience.

You say you have read everything on the website? Really. Where you reading it as a means to find our how you can use this work to get what you want - to get you companion back? Such intent delivers us into frustration and neutralizes any benefit this work offers. It's a bit like reading The Presence Process and then trying to figure out how we can make money out of selling its presented insights.

Yes, as you write, you have completed The Presence Process three times. Yes, as you have written, there is something you are "not yet getting". Join the rest of the economic community trying to provoke recovery of the economy so they can continue to live as if they can have exactly what they want when they want it.

My recommendation is you shift from trying to get something [feeding your wants] into being open to receiving something [what is required]. Your life, as it is right now, is exactly what is required. How do I know this? Because it is happening. What you want of it is simply "a want". How do I know this? Because it is not happening.

It doesn't matter if you do The Presence Process 1000 X 1000 times - if you cannot yet receive your life experience as valid - and respond to it as if required - you remain what we call "stuck". You are like a child sitting in the middle of a playground whining about not having the sweeties you want, when all around you are swings, whirly-go-rounds, and other kids to play with. However, you cannot see any of this because all you can see is what your unintegrated emotional signature cries for.

The Presence Process is a guide toward "growing up". However, it cannot grow you up for you. You have to take the actions to grow you up for you. Growing up commences and accelerates the moment we discern between our "wants" and "requirements", and when we then respond accordingly.

The deeper response is to engage through felt-perception with the emotional signature which arises whenever you cannot get what you want. This is the causality of you not being able to receive what is required. Being with this emotional signature without condition empowers you to transition from trying to get what you want to willingly and gratefully receiving what you require.

I am sure your companion does not want to be in a relationship with a whining child who is obsessing over not having sweeties. Grow youself up. Embrace every aspect of your life exactly as it is unfolding now as a requirement for your growth. Respond to it accordingly. This responsive approach is what leads us into the rest of the playground. The kids on the swings don't like to hang out with whiners [wanters]. They wanna play on the playground with players. Now is the dawning of the age of "the players". All the whiners and wanters are being laid off.

I am sure if you grow up a little and respond, instead of reacting, to your life experience, your companion's behavior shall shift. She may return, or she may leave you altogether - either way, you won't perceive yourself as stuck anymore. Stop wanting her.

Peace, joy, and a day full of play comes from knowing a simple little secret: Want only what is required. If humanity does not real eyes the difference between "a want" and "a requirement" REALLY SOON - we can kiss our arses goodbye - individually and collectively. Making this discernment is what elevates a species.

Do I beam light into my discomfort?

Q: I'm in need of some advice. I'm attempting to heal a physical pain. I've reread the procedure in session # four. I understand the act of sitting in silence and connecting our breathing and placing our loving attention on the pain and discomforting area. But my question is should I be doing something in conjunction with this, like sending healing light to this area? My understanding that during meditation the idea is to empty ones mind of thought, but should I be visualizing healing light descending on the pain area too? Please help me with my concern.

A: First of all, we cannot resolve physical pain by focusing on the physical aspect of the pain. Being with the physical pain without condition is a step in the right direction - however - all physical pain has causality. Its causality is unintegrated charged emotion. Our task is to become aware - not through naming - but through felt-resonance - of the charged emotion underlying the physical pain - and to be with this by feeling it without condition. This charged emotion is the felt-aspect of ourselves as a child still experiencing something which we are unable to integrate. Being with this emotional signature without condition integrates it organically at a pace which is required. The first task is therefore to access the emotional signature - the second task is to be with it without condition. The first task may take some "undoing procedure" - like breathing and wielding our thought processes in a particular manner - until we gain awareness of this causal felt-signature. The second task requires only being. Being without condition is not "doing" - it is not even "undoing" - it is being. While our fixation remains upon the physical aspect of our pain as if it is the causal point of it - we are inclined to want to "do stuff" like beaming light at it from our third eye - or stuff like that...

Because of our excursion through the mental plane of metaphysics [a necessary part of our evolution] we believe that unless we do things like sending rays of healing light from our third eye toward that which we seek to heal, nothing happens. Metaphysics is all about "doing something". This is why I refer to it as mental-physics.

The Presence Process invites us to "placing our loving attention upon the pain". What is loving attention? What is love? In metaphysics love is "something we do", and we have 101 ways of showing ourselves and others how loving we are through all the intricate ways we actively demonstrate love. Yet, the word "love" reveals itself in a word of similar spelling: evolve. To love is to allow evolution. When we love ourselves, we treat ourselves in such a manner that we are freely able to evolve. This means acknowledging that our experience - all of it - is valid - that it is our teaching - and we respond to it in this light. When we love another we allow them to have their own experience so they may fully evolve. We acknowledge their experience as being valid. You know I love you when I validate you by not interfering [entering fear] with you - when I behave in this light.

In The Presence Process we are asked "to love the hurt child within". We accomplish this by moving our awareness consciously along The Pathway of Awareness from the physical, through the mental, and into the hurt child aspect of our experience - the unintegrated emotional charge. We then "place our loving attention upon it". This means, once gaining awareness of this hurting aspect of ourselves - we allow it to be. We validate its experience. We approach it in the light that its experience, whether fear, anger, or grief, is 100% valid. Through allowing it to be - instead of unconsciously sedating and controlling it - it regains the capacity for momentum and reenters the unified flow of the cyclic nature of life as it is in the human realm. It becomes integrated.

Another way of saying "loving attention" is "being without condition". "Being without condition" and "loving unconditionally" are the same. When we are with any aspect of our experience without condition - we emanate a radiance whose vibrational capacity knows No Order Of Difficulty. "No Order Of Difficulty" in the context of The Presence Process means: "Whatever is required to accomplish resolution is made possible". The emphasis here is on the word "require", not "want".

Being without condition is a vibrational radiance which has the capacity to restore any aspect of our experience to authenticity. It provides exactly what is required. Being without condition is love and love is light. There is no light whose purity is more radiant than being without condition. This light is not the mentally generated metaphysical psi-fi light of "doing" we pretend to beam with our imagination from our third eye or heart center. This is the light of unconditional presence awareness which requires no pretence or imagining. What is requires no effort in manifesting. So, when we "place our loving attention" upon our child self - upon the causal felt-aspect of any unintegrated aspect of our experience - we are already bathing it in the purest radiance of light possible.

When we are able to integrate the programmed personality of "God" by integrating our religious imprinting - we real eyes that "being without condition" emanates a vibrational radiance whose Presence and capacity are an emanation of everything God is: Unconditional loving attention. It is not necessary to add to this with imagining. It already is.